bila futur menerjah

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم


pasti akan sampai satu waktu bilamana,

solat yang dikerjakan tidak mampu menghalang aku daripada melakukan dosa; sia-sia
al-Quran yang dibaca alunkan tidak tersampai pada jiwa; hambar
tafseer yang ditadabbur tidak betah menyentuh hati; kosong
doa aku pada Tuhan, sepertinya berbicara pada pokok; tawar, tiada pengharapan
zikir yang miniti di bibir bagai perbualan kosong bersama sahabat
amalku hilang, bersama keterlekaan

itu waktunya imanku berada di bawah -futur

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But when you’re low, shaytan will try to get at you differently; he’ll try to get you by making you hopeless. He’ll try to make you believe that you’re worthless and that there’s no point in trying. He’ll try to make you believe you are a failure and no matter what you do, you’ll never get back to where you once were! Or he may try to make you believe that you’re too ‘bad’ for Allah to forgive you. As a result, you may let yourself fall further.

You may have been up once, and then felt so bad about yourself because you started to slacken in your worship. And maybe because of your previous self-righteousness you didn’t give people permission to make mistakes or be weak. This ends up becoming self-destructive because it further translates to not giving yourself ‘permission’ to make mistakes and be weak.
Since you believe you don’t have permission to be human and fallible, when you do make a mistake, you are so hard on yourself that you lose hope. So you let yourself go. You may end up committing more sins, which only makes your hopelessness worse!

And it becomes a self-perpetuating vicious cycle. Shaytan will also try to make you believe that you shouldn’t try to repent or pray because you’d be a hypocrite since you are such a ‘bad’ person. He wants you to despair in the mercy of Allah. That’s what he wants! These are all lies, of course. But he’s good at what he does, after all. When you have sinned, that’s when you need to turn to Allah even more—not less!

To protect yourself from this downward spiral, remember that the lows are part of the path. Remember that ‘futoor’ (the dip) is part of being human. Once you realize that this does not mean you failed or that you are a hypocrite (like Abu Bakr (RA) thought), you can keep from giving up once you get there. The key is to develop certain habits which become your ‘bare minimum’. That means no matter how you feel, how unmotivated, how low, you still do these things at the very least. You realize that when you’re at your low, it’s going to be harder, but you struggle to keep doing them. For example, the bare minimum is the 5 daily prayers at their appointed times. This should *never* be compromised no matter *how much* you’re ‘not feeling it’. They should be considered like breathing air.

 Imagine what would happen if every time you were exhausted or in a bad mood you decided not to breathe! It is preferred to have other rituals that are part of the ‘bare minimum’. For example, stick to certain extra prayers and athkar or daily Quran—even if it’s little. Remember that Allah loves a small *consistent* action more than a huge inconsistent one.

 If you hold onto certain essentials during your ‘low’, you will ride the wave of iman and come back up, insha Allah. And, God willing, when you do go back up, you’ll be at a higher place than your last ‘high’. Know that the path to Allah is not a flat one. Your iman (faith) will go up and down. Your ability to worship will go up and down. But, know that for every dip, there is also a rise. Just stay patient, stay consistent, don’t lose hope and seek help in Allah. The path is hard. The path will have bumps and drops. But, like all things in this life, this path will come to an end. And that end will make it all worth it!
Allah says:

‘Oh mankind, indeed you are ever toiling towards your lord, painfully toiling…But you shall meet Him’ (84:6)

p/s : To all those suffering from sadness or depression, know that it isn’t your fault. It isn’t because you’re weak. It isn’t because you’re just not grateful enough. It isn’t because you’re just not religious enough. It isn’t because you don’t have enough faith. It isn’t because God is angry with you. To all the well-meaning people who tell you this, just smile. And know deep in your heart that the tests of God come in different forms to different people. And know that, by the help of God, every test can become a tool to get closer to Him. And that, verily, with hardship come ease–and like all things of this world–this too shall pass.


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4 comments:

Muzze said...

It was from Yasmin Mogahed's book; Reclaim Your Heart

Her reminder is truly a blessing and comfort for the soul. Deeply meaningful.

Alyaa Ali said...

muzze;

jazakallahukhayran. i supposed it is a must-read book ain't it?

insyaAllah. looking forward to buy one. tunggu voucher buku ;)
you own one? dimana ada jual yea?

Muzze said...

"I supposed it is a must-read book ain't it?"

Definitely! =)

regarding the book, alhamdulillah! i have one. Kawan yg study dekat US tolong belikan. (dapat harga murah sikit)..hehe

Buku yasmin Mogahaed tu boleh beli dekat mph.

p/s: strongly suggest you to read the book. =)


Alyaa Ali said...

lucky you ;)

InsyaAllah.
akan di survey nanti
have heard about it before tapi ingatkan belum terjual di Malaysia lagi

jazakallahukhayran again